Every time I sit in my living room I’m surrounded by Inspiration. Before you think I’m probably not firing on all cylinders today let me explain. On my living room wall, I have a poster of one of the greatest fighters of all time, Cassius Clay who became of course the legendary Muhammad Ali. Around that poster are my own fighting achievements. So every time I take a seat on my sofa I’m reminded of what I’ve accomplished and who I’ve become. I know I can get better and want to get further. Besides, it’s how you come back that really makes the difference.
One thing I do know, is that it’s not going to get any easier. It could be very easy to turn the page and say I just want to train now, been there and got the T shirt. The thing is that I don’t do easy. Easy is for quitters. Other areas of my life at the moment are equally just as tough, but this isn’t really about a woe is me my life is terrible right now blog. If it ever gets like that I’ll stop writing full stop. I’ve never been one to blame my circumstances for my situation. Just like with fighting I will tip things back in my favour.
In a way I think finding myself back to somewhere I really don’t want to be gives me more determination to succeed again. It’s true when they say that you learn a lot more from losing than you do from winning. And one thing I’ve noticed as I may of mentioned last week is that little by little I’m seeing improvement. I realized earlier on this week that my mentality and outlook on fighting has changed a lot over the past year. So what have I learnt? When it comes to mindset I’ve learnt not just to see getting to the fight or getting through the fight but winning it. One of my trainers has often told us that there is a very big difference between going to fight and going to win. Mindset is just as important as the physical training, and it’s something I’m going to keep working on.
When it comes to fighting in itself I’ve learnt what works for me and what doesn’t work. I’ve found my movement has improved and that although I need to sharpen up some of my technique, I’ve discovered where my strengths are and what I would like to make formidable. (You guessed it ‘knees of death’) I’ve also learnt that I need to start building on what I know to avoid any more in fight ‘ruts’ developing. But little by little, I’ve noticed different things happening. A few people have said to me that I’m getting better, and when your in the midst of post fight despondency it’s hard to take that on board , however having looked at myself over my last few fights I can see what they mean.
Even though the fight didn’t go the way I wanted it to last weekend, I still think that self belief that I could still possibly tip the fight in my favour in the last round made me give it everything I had. There was still something left in the tank and I knew that I had to push, and inside was a small voice reminding me that really it’s not how you start but how you finish. Thinking like this was important because for that final minute and a half (even though I fought reasonably well over the other final rounds) I gave it everything I had, and I personally think that if I gave it my all in a fight I was losing then I can give my all next time and start winning again. Of course it’s very easy to say this now it’s over but I hope you understand where I’m coming from.
So this week for me as I mentioned last time, has been all about r and r. It’s nice having some time out, and the more time I spend away from my gym the more I want to be there. But on the back of that, it’s good to have a good rest. After the past couple of months hard work it feels well deserved. That doesn’t mean that next week I’m going to be slacking. I’m back training again as of Monday and I’m hoping that I’m going to be taking some of my learnings with me. After all ‘it’s not the size of the dog in the fight, it’s the size of the fight in the dog.’ Have a good week and I’ll see you on the road.