Evening all. I thought I should stop by to let you know how things are going and mainly because as always there’s a lot going on with me. Training is slowly edging itself back on track despite a good few weeks of practically nothing bar one or two sessions here and there and I’m thinking positive about next week onwards.

I’ve set summer time this year latest as a realistic goal to be back up to speed by and still have my heart set on fighting overseas. It takes a lot of courage to step in a ring and compete and what I’ve developed in and out the ring have always made me walk tall. In fact, there’s very little these days that frightens me as most of my detractors and oppressors imaginary or not, are much smaller than I am.


Fear, a friend of mine and a subject I’ve written about at length over the course of this blog often rears it’s head at the most unexpected of times. If you’ve ever been unfortunate enough to find yourself in violent or at the very least confrontational situations outside of any competitive or training environment you’ll be all to familiar with my friend and I guess yours. Learning how to manage it and how to use is however what makes people like you and me exceptional.

A while back, I wrote about situational awareness and how is this something that I think it’s important to develop on a day to day basis.  Fundamentally, it goes back to flow state or staying present. Just recently I caught up with an old friend and the subject of being present came into the conversation.

He told me that he sees me as a person who is very much in the here and now when it comes to fighting, training and otherwise. I guess in a lot of respects I can be but like with everything else it’s a work in progress. The one thing I do know and that I’m very proud of is the guy that used to from time to time get  shoved around, attacked verbally and at points physically is long gone.

He was never a bad person and he’s always been incredibly brave but when push came to shove more often than not he got in the way. To finally get around him I’ve decided to develop an out of ring “on” switch. For me, and it doesn’t mean it’s the same for you (my old trainer rubs his nose with his glove before a fight vs me banging my gloves together as an example) is what Geoff Thompson calls the fence.

The fence not only allows for control of a situation but is also a great way to manage fear and turn fight or flight into fire if needed. These are skills that I’ve had to develop when competing and I think it’s just as important to work on them in day to day life. Being aware of your surroundings (spatial awareness) and being aware of your situation can serve you well and despite being a reasonably good judge of character I find it just as easy as the next person to find a smile or handshake disarmingly friendly at points.

If you have a good heart you’ll usually see the good in people. Sometimes you need to read between the lines. I’ve found that practicing what’s known as a walking meditation has helped immensely with staying in the now and it really is surprising what you notice when you learn to switch off. These are skills that I do my best to apply at the gym and something that happens naturally when fighting. I’m always present and the noise stops.

I see fencing as a kind of call to action but I think that it’s something that can serve everyone well who wants to learn how to defend themselves outside of a gym or ring environment. Fear as I’ve said is the mind killer and I know that if I can stay in charge of what’s in front of me than I’ve got more than a fighting chance.

i thought I’d leave you this week with a little more Geoff Thompson from way back when. He’s always been a martial artist and writer I’ve found particularly inspiring and is one person who absolutely knows fear  In the meantime, have a great week and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.



Off switch.

Well, here we are again you and me and as usual I’m late.  You know since the last time we caught up I’ve still been struggling with doing things not just how I want to but how I should do. I think I’m going to stick to my guns however and keep focused.

It does take time to get things back on track but it’s getting there. Load balancing has never been an easy task but it’s doable when you put your mind to it. And speaking of putting my mind to things I need to start paying attention more in training. I think I’m picking things up well at present. Not everything but there’s a lot that works.

Focus, especially when I’ve had a long day isn’t always where it should be. I’ve always been a bit of day dreamer and I internalize a lot and it’s easy to find myself drifting a little when I should be paying attention.You see the thing is when I relax and really enjoy what I’m doing, things more often than not get a lot easier than they were the minute before.

When I put the frustrations out my head of needing someone to be sharper with the pads, and I forget the bad day I’ve had work wise, I let go of the stress of Open University course work I keep running away from, forget about the bills and everything else that lies ahead, when I let all of that fall away and focus on the here and now things get easier. And I realize I’m getting better.


Keeping myself in the moment or the here and now (which is where we should be all of the time but often finds ourselves caught up in the past or worrying about the future) keeps my mind empty enough to let my body do what it needs to. I know I need to be training more than I am at present. I can feel it every time I kick, every time I hit something. My body tells me so I keep focusing on getting better and little by little It’s coming together. It just needs a bit more time every week..

Well, being honest it needs a lot more but that, like everything else is a work in progress. Now that’s something I’ve not heard myself say in a while. Why it can only be a good thing. So as I get ready for the rest of Wednesday morning, contemplate how far I’m going to run at some point today, worry about my degree, workflow and everything else ahead.. I think I’m going to remember that now and again it’s ok to let things fall away. I think I’m going to remember to be still. Because here I am. And there. Right there. Is the voice.




The long read.

Hello. It’s nice to have made it back again, despite what has been threatening to become yet another day and evening of procrastination I’ve decided to get a few things done  although there’s not much left of Sunday to do them in. So where have I been hiding the past couple of weeks you might ask? Well no where really. I’ve just been busy. Getting stuff done and soldiering on as usual. It’s a long road…

Despite thinking  I was due to get my training back up to the place it needs to be again I was ever so slightly disappointed to find that Wednesdays have been replaced with a boxing class and that the weekends are currently sitting in hiatus.

That’s life as the saying goes but it’s also given me an incentive to take things into my own hands a little (but also not go Ronin like one of my trainers moaned at everyone about the other week. Honest, Dave. You can trust me.) and  start filling out the gaps where gaps need to be filled. So far, I’ve filled out a missing two.

I’ve come to the conclusion that if I want to fight again this year I need to start taking training seriously again too. Despite the week currently being thin on the ground martially I’m doing my best to get things right and train hard each session. I went through a stage of finding reasons to leave a little earlier some nights. (Although I do have to work late sometimes )

I’ve finally managed to snap out of that little negative cycle (mainly because of Dave. Cheers.) and stay to the end. I guess if you’re not going to be there from start to finish you might as well stay at home. Although I’m looking to increase quantity at present, I’m pleased the time I currently do spend in my second home is time well spent.


I think I need some kind of life hack right now because I’m already falling into some of the same traps that got me last year. I found a lovely run yesterday and I think I need to stop making excuses and make sure I’m doing a big run more than once a week. I seem to get distracted easily these days either that or I’m just lazy.

There’s lots to be said for dropping a few kilograms too and eating less crap so let’s see if I can get my diet on track. Being honest, it’s not that bad but could be better. I’ll try to get a little more vegan and fish and less pastry than I have been of late. I’ve also decided to cut out alcohol in the week. As soon as I have something on the cards it’ll be no booze full stop. I’ve also taken to training with a hoody on again and 2 layers underneath.

All of these things, as minor, nerdy and not very fun as they may seem all add up to getting me back in the right place to achieve good things this year. I don’t want to be sitting here in 2019 wishing I did everything I said I would in 2018, I know where that little road takes you and it’s no where fast. It’s very easy to write about what I’m going to achieve and how I’m going to get back to “fighting me” but the proof is in the pudding as the saying goes. It’s lucky I can keep my sweet tooth in check because a statement like that could lead to big trouble.

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Then there’s the writing. Man. That has become a tough one to get on top of. Over a year ago I started a writing project called “last of the good guys” and over a year it’s still waiting to be finished. I’ve given up on finding excuses not to write so as of tomorrow and after a run I’m taking some power back and getting it moving again. Last year, I promised myself it would be finished by October. This year I’m promising myself it will be first draft ready by August. I’m also in the final year of an Open University degree. I don’t do things by halves.

You know, I can’t help but wonder how I must come across on this little blog of mine some days. There’s a lot of I wills and not enough I did it’s anymore so if I do one thing this year I’m going to make sure I do everything I say I will. I kind of did that last year but got side tracked along the way too. So far, 2018 hasn’t been a bad one. It’s keeping me on my toes but procrastination just won’t relent. It’s a monster that tells me to do it tomorrow. It really frustrates me because I’ve only ever lived for today.

Monday is just around the corner and I’m setting my alarm for a frightening 7.00 am. I start work at 8.30 (I was planning to have the morning off but I’ll only regret it in the end. ) so that gives me enough time to get that run in and write a 1000 words. I’ll check in with you on Twitter when it’s done. Monday challenge. Bring it on. In the meantime, I’m looking forward to the week ahead. Martial challenges and life in general are all about graft. It usually yields the best results. Have a good week, train hard and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.

Conversations with myself.

You know I don’t think I meant to have a slightly longer pause than planned writing this blog. In that respect I think I owe you an apology. Procrastination often catches me off guard these days so for now, I can only assure you that it won’t happen again.

I realized the other day that I’ve been meaning to do a lot of things of late and although the year is still pretty new (although already moving by at an alarming rate of knots) I’ve already got a list of goals mentally turning into a list of “When I get around to it”. That can be dangerous for someone like me because I know that talk is cheap and bullshit runs a marathon.

Therefore, as an immediate fix I’ve decided to start writing everything down once again. It’s funny the effect seeing a list of what you want to achieve (or in my case a page full of scribble that only I can decipher) in front of you does. It brings it all a little closer home that it was before.


Procrastination and negative thinking can get in the way of a lot I set out to do, and my biggest enemy has always been myself. It’s funny because at points it’s very easy to think I’m the only person in the history of doing “this sort of thing” whether it be training, fighting, or running my own business that has these doubts and these fears.

When you get to the point where you realize that you’re not alone and you never have been alone you start to win inside. To achieve what I set out to achieve I need to ensure not only that I have the right attitude but that I have the right people around me.

I’ve found that seeing what’s ahead as a challenge rather than an obstacle will usually help me overcome  and if my environment or the people  around me are what can be deemed as “toxic” then I’ll change them without a second thought. I’ve been lucky enough throughout my Thai boxing career to be surrounded by people that aim to bring out the best in me. Detractors that I’ve encountered know what they can do.

The one thing I am and always have been is determined. Bloody minded and tenacious in my approach. But adopting this attitude I’ve managed to change a lot in my life including my career. I run a reasonably successful small IT consultancy that is still young and I never thought I’d stick with it. I never thought I’d step in a ring but I did and I never thought I’d step back in a ring but this year I will. So there you go.

So when I Look at my list of what I’ve got in store for this year I feel a little daunted. A little bit overwhelmed but also already marginally accomplished. I feel accomplished because I’m making it real. If I can write this blog I can finish my book. If I can step in a gym then I can step back in a ring., If I can get two regular customers then I can get another ten. The possibilities are endless. Isn’t that exciting?

Goal setting at points makes me feel brave. I’ve learnt to stay humble and keep my feet on the ground but inside I know I can do it. Everything I want to achieve this year I will. It’s just a matter of time. Have a great week and train hard. I’ll see you on that road.



Success is

You know, I’m really looking forward to start putting in a little more time at the gym when it’s open as normal again. I’m rapidly coming to the conclusion that a couple of sessions a week just really isn’t enough for me so I think from next week onward and time and money allowing I’ll start getting a little K1 into my life. Just like I said I would last year, and until normal service is resumed. It fills the week out and makes me feel a little more accomplished when I don’t have the time to train with friends at the weekends…

We’re nearly a month into the new year and there’s already been some exciting developments taking shape. It’s looking like I may be back on track fighting wise over the summer and all being well they’ll be a chance to clamber back onto the horse before that point too. I’ve always needed a goal to work towards when it comes to training. It’s not the same unless I have something to point myself at. Besides, it keeps me focused and makes my heart stay big. It’s a long way off yet so we’ll see.


I hope that along with everything else this year I make a real success of the journey I’m on with Thai and do everything that I set out to do. Sometimes in life you set goals and it takes a little longer than anticipated to get there, but I’ve learnt that if you stick with it you’ll produce good results as long as you put in the work.

I’ve found that part of succeeding with all things martial is about adopting the right attitude. I’ve always done my best especially when it comes to competing to step into personal doubts and fears and prove them wrong. I’ve never been someone who would expect myself to reach a “world class” level martially but I think at the very least I’ve always been someone whose done their best to draw on how the best get great at what they do and try to adopt at least some of the mentality for my own personal journey.

Life isn’t about putting people on pedestals of greatness but for me rather knowing that if other people can achieve what they set out to achieve then I can too. It’s better to draw inspiration from people and situations around you than to magnify those people into something they aren’t. After all. The best only ever get to that level because they put in the work. If they can do it then so can you. It’s your world..

The biggest frustration for me at present with training is not being able to spend as much time at the gym as I’d like as I mentioned earlier. I guess for the time being my current goal is to find ways to fill in the blanks and put in the extra work I need. Today I finally managed to nail a decent run route and I can build on that bit of home training by making sure I’m running at least 3 times a week, I’m shadow boxing at home, I’m doing free weights, sit ups and so and so forth. If I don’t have as much time at the gym as I’d like at present then I need to make sure I always take it home and train as much as I can. Then when things pick up again I can make sure I hit the ground running. (no pun intended) “that’s how winning is done”. Right?

So in the meantime, I’m sticking to my guns and my goals and look forward to keeping on moving forward through blood, sweat and tears. As always it’s a good journey to be on. The little fighter still has a big heart. “thanks for listening in.” As always train hard and I’ll see you on that road.




My bad.

You know, I haven’t spent much time this week at the gym due to life commitments and it still not being as open as often as I’d like. I guess with current circumstances taken into consideration with training I should make sure I’m there as much as possible, so I guess this week is my bad.

There’s still opportunities to train on a Friday night night too  and here and there at the weekends as well. There. I think I just made two sessions into a reasonable three or four. Although, being honest I’m looking forward to getting back to some good old fashioned blood and guts on a Wednesday and Saturday. It’s nice to have options.

Despite a slower week martially I’ve still managed to stick to running although I’m currently getting a decent route fleshed out. It’s trial and error at the moment but at least I’m doing something when I’m not at the gym. With that and the inclusion of free weights at home as well as a bit of shadow boxing from time to time I should be up to speed in no time.

The next step is to cut down on pubs and bottles of wine at the weekends. That’s my bad as well. I’ve decided to become a booze free zone for a couple of weeks from tomorrow onwards just to get back into the habit of clean living and sensibleness for a while.

Mentally I’m gearing myself up to start training hard again but to get the most out of it I want my fitness and everything else to be running in first gear too. And besides the fitter I get the sharper I get in training. It’s a long road but it’s always  worth it.


I think last year I could of achieved a lot with training if I’d spent more time at the gym and no doubt could of still kept competing if I wanted to. I don’t begrudge what I did and didn’t do when it comes to Thai  but I certainly feel energized when I think about the year ahead. Thai boxing is a lot more than fighting and I can see my overall journey extending well into the years ahead.

I keep an open mind with martial arts and I’m glad these days I think just as much about street application as I do about what happens in a ring. It feels like I’ve come full circle because when I first started out down this road  (nearly 11/12 years ago now) I started off training with self defense in mind.

Along the way I think I’ve kind of forgotten why I began so it’s good to get back to elements of that as well as looking forward to whatever ring based challenges 2018 throws at me. I’ve got a long way to go but I still love what I do. It’s a big part of who I am.

There’s a lot to be said for applying focus from martial arts and the energy needed into other areas of my life so despite not training as much as I wanted to last year I think my energy was most certainly flowing in the right direction. It’s good to have learnt how to balance it again and put it back into all things martial and writing based too.

In the meantime, it’s good to have caught up with you all again as planned. I hope next week I’ll have a little more to say about all things martial but it’s nice to be able to give you a little insight into what’s currently making me tick. When it comes to everything else.. well. Watch this space. 😉 In the meantime, have a great week and as always train hard and fight easy. I’ll see you on the road.




Back on track.

Well, after a much needed Christmas break overseas with the fam and a ever so slightly extended break with writing I’ve finally decided to sit down and get this blog of mine back on track for the year ahead. Last year may of fallen short in a few respects but  often when I focus on getting one area heading in the right direction the rest will often follow suit. So procrastination aside, it’s good to be back. I intend to stay here.

Training this week has been a little lighter on the ground with the gym currently open a couple of times a week until one of our trainers returns from Thailand later in the month. Putting it bluntly, it’s alright for some and I hope at some point over the summer (at the risk of wishing the year away it’ll be here sooner than we think.) I manage to follow suit.

Despite us not having as much access to the gym as I’d like time there is as always time well spent. We’re lucky enough to have Dave Wilmot from Team Tieu teaching us on a Tuesday and Thursday at present and it’s good to feel that as always I’m learning. Although in hindsight, sparring needs to be more frequent and I need to get a little sharper and think a little smarter.

It’s all still there and I want to start getting up to speed for any opportunity that may come up in the months ahead. Despite what some may say, you’re never too old to push yourself to be your best. And besides, I’m not that old anyway. Just a little rusty.

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Just recently I got myself out to a great seminar that focused on martial arts body mechanics and developing power when striking. Without digressing too much into the ins and outs there was certainly some areas that can be applied to clinching that we worked on and it seems that there is similarities across the board. The longer I’ve trained for the more I’ve noticed them when I’ve  taken some time to cross train a little in different systems.

I’m hoping that I can look at situations from a different perspective this year when it comes to combat and even with training itself. if you always do what you’ve always done.. well you know the rest, and despite that little mantra still ringing true for me many years it’s good to know I know what works for me and what doesn’t.

Over Christmas I spent a lot of time running mainly to repent for meals out with the family and the usual over indulgences that always strike over the festive season. I’ve decided to make sure that this year especially while training isn’t at it’s usual regularity I keep that on track too. If you don’t run then you don’t fight and although my fitness is still pretty good I want it to be better. Not only am I currently setting intentions I’m making up for a lack of new years resolutions too. 🙂

So, from next week onwards I’m going to make sure that every little helps and most importantly counts until I can start to up the ante again. Where there’s a will there’s a way and if you’ve got heart you should never give up. Here’s to 2018. Until the next time.. I’ll see you on that road.