You and me.

Well, I thought I should check in to keep this blog of mine up to speed. It’s not been a bad week training and I’m really excited about heading overseas next week. I’m not just looking forward to the fight although that’s the priority but the whole weekend too. Flight booked, accommodation sorted.. yeah. Good times ahead.  This is is something I’ve been wanting to do for about the past 2 years and it’s going to be good to step up again.

It’s a good feeling knowing that I’m at the first stage of finally achieving a goal.  It’s a good feeling seeing that goal in front of me knowing I’m about to step into it, that I’m actually making this happen and that’s yes it’s real. It’s a great feeling that I can finally shut down the critics internal or otherwise, and start listening to the guy who might be a little better than he thinks he is. I cope well under pressure. I stay focused.

Yeah. Sometimes you have to listen to yourself and you have to keep pushing yourself forward. Do I sound a little arrogant? over confident? You know.. maybe sometimes I can be like that when it comes to fighting. Maybe I’ve got bored of staying where you want me to be. Either way, I’m only ever just me and  I’m going to be with a good team on the day and in all round good company. It’s good to be back.

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“it’s good to be back.” I keep saying it to myself. And it’s good to know that despite the butterfly nerves that have started rising up from time to time I’ll be ready by the end of my last week of training. If I’ve set my intention to make this happen then now is the time to make sure that intention is set on winning. It has been but I still don’t feel as pushed as I should be.

I let my inner critic tell me  that no one gives a fuck about me doing this again but then remember that’s not true. I give a fuck. The relationship between me and my old fight trainer became toxic and  I’ve never really got why, but we achieved quite a lot together and I don’t forget things like that. These days I have good people around me.

I’ll have good people around me out there too. These days I surround myself with good.  I’m glad I’ve found my new home but I have only ever wanted to fight for me. The only person I have something to prove to is me.

I think this summer I’m going to have check in with some very old friends from when I used to train and fight out of Sakprasert in Bournemouth. I want to start networking again with people on the fight circuit and with the help of my current gym find what I’m looking for because there’s still something left in the tank.

So anyway, next week is nearly upon us. I’m going to start it how I finished this one with a run at some point in the day.  I’ll put down work and procrastination and just go and do it. Sprint training hasn’t been fun and it’s harder than I remember but I know that every little helps, then Tuesday and Thursday is the last big ones before the weekend. I’m sure when I’m in it and it’s real  before I get in the ring I’ll be afraid. I know fear. Me and fear are old friends. Here’s to turning it into fire. Have a good week, train hard fight easy and just like that last time..I’ll see you on that road.

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Weeks of graft.

Evening.  It’s nice as always to see you again, a little bit later than anticipated this week granted but I thought I should stop making excuses and just sit down and get this thing written. So here we are again you and me. Like I said a sentence or two ago, nice to see ya.

I’m into my second to last week of training before I head out to box for the first time in over 2 years and although it only started on Tuesday, and today’s run could of been a little longer than it was it’s still got the hallmarks of  a week of graft.

On reflection I don’t think that I’ve pushed as hard as I should do over the past week so I’ll need to hit the ground running (literally) tomorrow morning onwards. I may even see if I can push the boat out and train twice on Saturday. Maybe I need a larger mental kick up the arse over the next week or so. Either way I’m getting sharper and I’m looking forward to fighting again.

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Can I get a six pack like this one from back in the day  between now and next Saturday plus drop another 2 or 3 kg? There’s no such thing as I can’t!. besides I’ve always been a lean fighter. 

Mentally I’m firing up for war. At points it seems like everything’s annoying me. If there’s a button that needs pressing I currently have several big shiny ones that are usually fixed with a trip to the gym and a lot of sparring. Good places for the energy to go. There’s nothing like letting Mr nasty take front seat in the ring. I have to be a different person in there. Fear should always become fire. Fire should be used proactively in training between now and then.

Nothing we do is ever a game but it is always a lot of fun. I don’t seem to have remind myself that I’m standing up again because I’ve always regretted standing down for as long as I have. It’s a fight, it’s just a sport but it’s a martial art I love and feel I have a lot of time left with.

I think really my goal isn’t just to win (because I know that I can) but to be the best I can possibly be. I haven’t revisited my last fight because I can play it back mentally any time I want. I think I’l learn a lot and it will be good to get the rust off. I know where I’ve gone wrong before and I’m confident that this time I can walk away the victor. Here we are again you and me. I’ll see you on that road.

 

 

 

 

 

Super simple stuff.

Well, here we are again you and me. It’s good to be back on track. I’ve just come back from a fat fighting run of only 3 or so k but it was still hard work. It’s pretty warm out there at the moment so I decided to head out with a hoodie on to sweat a little more than usual. It’s how I’ve always managed to get weight off. Training hard, running lots and ok well, cutting out the booze and eating (reasonably) right. I’m lucky enough to have been blessed with a high metabolism so after a while the weight just starts to fall off.

I’m fighting in 3 weeks yesterday so that gives me a couple of weeks to really push and bring out the best in myself. Luckily, I’m starting to get sharper. Kicks can still be too slow but they are strong and the technique is better. I usually find when I’m actually in there I respond well anyway. Sparring has been going well and everyone whether they know it or not are really pushing me.

I’m not going to go into the ins and outs of what’s improving and what’s not on here. (there’s nothing like giving your game away) but suffice to say I think slowly but surely I’m going to end up teaching myself some new tricks. It’s never going to be anything at the level of ground breaking as I’ve been training and fighting for a long time and know myself but I can still build on what I already have logged and most importantly, what I know works.

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When it comes to fighting I’ve remembered it’s really important to keep it simple and also to remember that  regardless of what level you are fighting at basics will see you through. I guess that’s why it’s important to have a strong foundation as well as a big heart. I’d rather be a fighter that may not necessarily be spectacular to watch but that gets the job done vs throwing cartwheel kicks that don’t land. (as an example.)

Having a strong foundation combined with a good defense is something I think is enough to help me win my next fight and ideally win some more after that too. When I’m close enough I can start to apply pressure which is one of my strengths as a boxer. A good defense and counters can help me close that gap. Maybe I’m giving my game away a little.. but I love talking about what I do. It has been and always will be good fun. If it wasn’t then what would be the point?

So keeping in the here and now (it’s always the best place to be because the past is the past and the future hasn’t happened yet) I’m looking forward to rounding the week off later. Training next week needs to be a real push and the week after that too. No one said it’s going to be easy but ultimately it’s going to be worth it. I thought I’d leave you this week with a video I came across from a few years back. Pornsanae Sitmonchai training for his fight in Ireland against the formidable Rungravee. See? Super simple stuff. Have a good week, and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.

 

Courage.

Evening all,Here we are again you and me. Sorry I’ve arrived later than anticipated but as always it’s nice to see you again. It’s starting to get warmer here and at the moment it’s the sort of warmth that manages to hang around until the evening.

It’s quiet where I live at night. In fact it’s so quiet it’s a good time to reflect or to think of nothing at all on the reasonably long walk home. Some days the latter is always the better.

I think I spend more time these days writing on Twitter than I do actually writing this blog so I think it’s about time I changed that around. It wasn’t until earlier today when I watched this pretty inspiring lecture (sorry Geoff) on procrastination did I realize that the time I’ve been moaning about not having for writing, training enough, fighting and so on has suddenly been given to me once more.

I had to make a decision to put one part of my life on hold (again) so I could start to get the other bits right. I’ve studied with the Open University for many years now and the perpetual ground hog day I’ve found myself in with the last year or so of study has found a way of successfully catching me off guard a couple of times now.

You have to take it seriously, just like you have to take fighting and training seriously or else your just not going to do it. Being honest  I think yet again I took on a little too much so although stepping back wasn’t the easiest thing to do it really feels like it was the right one. I’m back in the mix in 12 months time. By that time I’ll have my first book published and my business will have become a multi national. Just you watch.

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I’ve never been afraid to admit my flaws and it’s true there is a gift in every situation we encounter in life. Because that is all we ever have. Situations. I think when I stepped away from this particular one I realized what I was looking for had been there all along. And on that basis, for the past couple of weeks I’ve been training 4 times a week again. It’s looking like this week I’ll be back up to a healthy 5.

And I should think so too. Besides, I’m fighting in under a month. I’m running (though not as much as I should be ) and I’m getting sharper. I need more though. I need to add a little more. I don’t see the point in procrastinating and telling myself I’ll do this in 6 months I’m looking forward to getting back in there now. You are never too old when your heart is big and I’m a good fighter. I like pressure.

So despite checking in a few days later than planned it’s nice to touch base with you all. It’s been a half decent week training so far, and there’s tomorrow night and the weekend to go yet too. Then there’s the running. I don’t feel nervous at present because at the moment it doesn’t feel real. I’ve been out for a little while and I can’t wait to get back in but I don’t feel the usual nervousness that gets me about now (or is it next week)  and I can’t help but wonder why that is.

Trust me when I’m  back in the square ring next month it will feel nothing but real. Fighting is brutal full stop but in the ring you don’t have anywhere to run. You have to stand your ground and show that person who you are.

Fighting is also fun. It brings out the best in me and I love the challenge. I always step out the ring a little bigger than who I was. “Good fight mate good fight!” Yeah I miss that.. And the nerves. And the tunnel vision And the courage it takes to stand your ground and fight. I’ve missed being a fighter.

So for the rest of this week, It’ll be more of the same. Training harder and starting to push a bit more. As the song goes “If you don’t know me by now, you will never ever ever know me at all.” Have a fantastic week and train hard. I’ll see you on that road.

Back on track. (because it’s still a long road.)

Well, here we are again you and me. It’s been a crazy past few weeks and It’s felt like at points I’ve never really had any time to myself. If you’ve wondered if my blog had dropped off the face of the planet for good, I’m pleased to say it’s back. It’s back and it’s pissed off it got put down for so long. Writing is therapy.

So, what’s new with me in the world of all things martial? Well, quite a lot. I’ve finally managed to punch through the glass ceiling and get myself matched up to fight overseas in June. I’m pleased to say my trainers said ‘ok’ (cheers Dave) and people at my camp seem pretty supportive.

I’ve been through the grinder a little emotionally with a few things of late, but not letting irrelevant morons, pathetic self pitying trolls and general losers (luckily none of whom exist at my current camp but turn up in walks of my life ) grind my gears too much it’s good to be gradually heading back in the right direction. Bullying takes many forms and bullies regardless of who they are have always been and always will  be small pathetic little people who inevitably dig their own holes.

Whenever you feel at your lowest they suddenly appear to try to either play games or kick you when your down. Or do both. Either way like Public Enemy said. Your gonna get yours. I had to mention those kind of people because when we stand up they become afraid.

So here we are again you and me, and here I am. Standing up again. In June of this year I have my 16th fight on the cards. I’m fighting under IMFA rules  5 x 3 minute rounds, anything goes or Thai rules  Which is what’s called “A” class here. We just have a little bit of padding (luckily no head guard).  It’s going to be a good way to get back into the swing of competing. I feel ready to turn it up a notch again. I keep saying it to myself over and over. It’s good to be back.

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I’ve got 4 and a bit weeks to go before I fly out to fight, a bit of weight to drop, a lot of running to do and training to focus on. I’m pleased to say the alcohol got thrown out the window on Sunday. I already feel healthier. Pretty soon my body will start saying “thanks” as is it’s custom. Just like they did with the Bionic man, I can rebuild the fighter in me. He’s never left. This time round he’ll win all his fights.

I’m hoping to continue in the same vein when back home after the next one but it’s better to focus on what’s ahead rather than the next 6 months. I’ve never really set fighting goals other than winning (that took it’s time) but I think I’m out to shake the rust off and most importantly be the best I can be. Which of course, means smashing the person in front of me. I can do it. I have heart. I’m a better fighter than way back when. And I’m tougher inside and wiser too. It’s good to be back on track and as always it’s a long road. I’ll see you on it soon.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Alrighty then.

Well, it’s nice to be able to catch up even if it’s taken a little longer than I’d like this time round. I’ve been busy. Yeah I know. Same old same old, but seriously though I have. Training hasn’t been too bad of late and I’ve found myself leveling out at a few sessions a week.

It’s been good to be able to remain consistent and I’m thinking I’ll really start to pick things up again next week onwards. As Friday is a always a little lighter on the ground work wise and everything else in general I felt it was an appropriate moment to sit down and get some writing done. Besides, that Friday feeling is over rated anyway.

So how have things been going of late? well, to be completely honest with you busy. I’ve been running my own business now for nearly 3 years and over the past 8 months or so  it’s started to take shape. With that and everything else in my life it feels at points I barely find the time for myself anymore. Luckily, I know that I’m not alone. I also know that slow and steady will often win the race. Every day strugglers often get the goods.

I’m pleased to say I’ve still kept the same goals I had at the beginning of this year when it comes to all things martial and although at points the horse seems very adapt at galloping away from me I’m utterly determined to  climb back on it. Where’s there a will there’s a way and of course.. me.

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Next month I’ll be shaking a bit of rust off for some friendly non competitive fun which in turn I’m hoping gets my head back in the game to step back in the ring for real. It’s going to be good to see where things are at under a bit of pressure. Keeping it simple as always is the order of the day.

I’ve still got my sights on heading overseas over seas this year to compete but it’s not looking massively likely at present. Weight and experience is proving to be what is commonly known as a ball ache but I’m confident that my trainers here can find me someone in the meantime I’m keeping my ear to the ground regardless.

The rest of the weekend looks like training which is always a good thing. I’ve been pretty slack with running of late so might have to start with a decent one to kick off the day then it’s training over the weekend too. As I said a minute ago.. Where there’s a will there’s a way. Have a good weekend and just like the last time, I’ll see you on that road.

 

 

 

Only if your heart’s in it.

Evening all. Like the bus that finds itself arriving on time because the previous driver got sacked for general tardiness, my blog’s arrived back in it’s usual Sunday spot. Well that’s nice. 🙂 This week unlike last week has been full of martial goodness. That’s awesome.

Despite not running as much as I’d like this week I think I’m going to get it back on track next week onwards. I keep reminding myself that if you don’t run you don’t fight. It’s important to adopt the right attitude with everything I do. But, training this week has been good.. 4 sessions beats two hands down  and it’s already looking like it’s panning out the same next week too. That can only ever be a good thing.

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about whether or not I really have the commitment to get myself up to a decent level for fighting again and as with all things Thai a lot of it comes down to heart.

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You need to be prepared to firstly put in the work and most importantly not give up no matter how tough things get. If you can’t commit to the training then you’ve as good as lost. So instead of making excuses I’ve decided to put my heart into boxing again as well as everything else. Just recently I spent some time reading Don Heatrick’s excellent Muay Thai strength and conditioning blog.

What was quite inspiring for me was reading that after a 2 year fighting break and at the age of 40 Don became a British champion. When you read about people like Don making one hell of a comeback in one of the toughest martial arts on the face of the planet you can’t help but wonder what you can achieve when you put your mind to it. Another great fighter and someone who got back in the ring after some time out is Pete Irving. Not only did he get back in the ring, he got back in the ring in Thailand and won.

Both of those situations are for me, affirmation that I can achieve what I’ve been aiming for, for  well over a year now and I understand that if I can get back in the ring and fight  then I can get back in the ring and win. I don’t want to be the greatest I just want to be the best I can possibly be. Like my old trainer Sert used to say me in fight training “there’s still something left in the tank.” Yes it can be done.

So when I look at next week onwards I know the road ahead is going to be tough, I know there’s going to be put downs, critics, procrastination galore and weeks when I feel like outright giving up and heading down the boozer but what I want absolutely outweighs all of that. I’ve made sure I’ve spent a bit of time sparring in the ring again recently and at one point it was just me and that space.  I still absolutely feel at home. There’s a fighter that’s rising up again after all this time away and he’s grinning. Have a good week and be the best you can be. I’ll see you on that road.