Wherever you go.

This week just like the week before has been  a good week of training. It’s nice to be back on track and pretty consistent with what I do, and despite being tempted to train earlier I settled with a run to finish the week off. Saturday morning was pretty good so it felt kind of ok to have a rest today.

So plans for heading overseas this weekend.. yeah so that fizzled out into nothing unfortunately. I’ve still got a possible opportunity to fight in July to work towards but life got in the way of what I wanted to do this weekend so mid week I decided to cancel.

I’m not sure if it was life getting in the way or myself (more like a mix of both )  but either way this month is keeping me on my toes. Things however in general are going well when it comes to all things martial and I’m planning to make a trip overseas when the next show comes round.

I should of bought my ticket last month and got everything sorted then but it’s easy to live in the land of could of, would of and should of. I’d rather live and learn and do everything at an early stage next time round.  I’m keeping in touch anyway and besides either way, I’m pleased I’ve got my focus back with training.

It’s not always easy getting yourself down the gym 4 or 5 times a week but it’s good to be able to do that. The more I put in, well the more I get out. I’ve got my mojo back and where there’s a will there’s always a way.


Despite having my proverbial tail slightly and it is only slightly between my legs about the weekend I’m intending to get straight back into things next week onwards. I’ve even found I’m starting to eat healthier as well as run more. When it comes to doing anything remotely competitive I’ve still got a couple of years left if I want. That much I’m certain of.

If July comes together I want to give myself about 5 weeks of serious training. I can probably get ready in about a month and I’m happy to step out my comfort zone if needs be. I’ve had enough fights to do that really. And besides I think I’m getting better.

So, for the next couple of weeks it’s beer. pizza and bedlam. Na, it’s just the usual graft that I’ve grown to love. I’m keeping the self defense training going too. I took a lot away from being shown some Tai Chi last week and casting my mind back to a few weeks before that I got shown some pretty useful ground fighting techniques at a seminar.  It was good  and reminded me a little of some BJJ/ Krav Maga techniques I got shown just before I left Bournemouth.

Cross training always helps keep my mind open and despite training in Thai as much as I was then it was refreshing to get shown some techniques then that I picked up well too. I’ve always got on well with the “empty hand” side of things and it was nice to see how well Krav complimented Muay Thai. There was a load of boxers raving about it at the gym just across the way which prompted the exploration.

I think with both Muay Thai and everything else happening in the background I might be in danger of becoming a well rounded martial artist this year. That’s pretty exciting. 10 odd years down the line and I’m still just as passionate about what I do as I was way back in the mists of 2007. I think I’m still a work horse when I need to be.

I’m still horrendously lazy at points but ultimately it’s good to have something to focus on again. Despite things not going according to plan this weekend I just reset and carry on as normal. I think that’s how Iv’e always been. When you find your passion it’s like that sometimes. Have a good week, train hard and just like the last time, I’ll see you on that road. “Go with all your heart.”

Well that was interesting.

Last week. Well that was interesting. It was also awesome because I spent the best part of the week at the gym. I’ve finally got back to my space of training 4 or 5 times a week again plus running a couple of times too. In fact I’m going to do that later.

Sorry to be a little later than expected by the way. The best intentions of Sunday do on occasion spill over into the next working day (or even the day after that) but being my own boss I can invest a little time into doing the second thing I love the most which is of course writing. Yeah. I need to get a lot more of that in my life.

I’m pleased to say I’ve decided to have a little break from the blue peril (Facebook ) for anything other than business related stuff and hope that  it’s going to let me get the focus I need back in other areas of my life including writing and training. At the very best it’s an entertaining distraction and at it’s very worst it sucks the life out of me. The sun’s shining and there’s people and stuff.. yeah. Let’s do that! If you catch my blog on the regular then you’ll still find it in it’s usual places outside that little world.

Getting back to all things martial it was good to have spent the best part of last week training and the week certainly finished on an interesting note. I’ve mentioned before I occasionally train at the weekend with some mates and last weekend I got sbown and I like to think learnt a bit of Tai Chi boxing.

It’s one of those martial arts I’ve always respected but have never really known a great deal about but on a couple of occasions I’ve seen what it can do and have been impressed. One of the more impressive instances was when an old friend of mine sent me half way across the pub he helped manage with what seemed like a very simple strike to my chest. You learn humility in the funniest ways sometimes.

DCF 1.0
DCF 1.0

We worked on grounding ourselves so it was harder for someone to disrupt our balance “qigong” and also practiced a couple of drills, one of which is logged in my subconscious and even sitting here writing this now I can see myself doing. That’s good. In fact that’s excellent. I’m a firm believer in keeping my mind open when it comes to martial arts and it’s always good to think outside the ring and in the real world as such.

What’s also interesting is the similarities in Tai Chi striking and Muay Thai striking. In both instances the key is really to stay relaxed to generate the most power and from the little I was shown it seems that like with Thai there’s real economy in movement. I liked the way a simple sidestep out the way of a punch opened up a whole realm of possibilities. I guess that’s kind of like Muay Thai. There’s always a lot of ways to answer back.

And just like with Thai, my friend made it clear then when you respond it should be a sequence of attacks. One flowing into another. Even though we only trained for a couple of hours it made me realize how rigid and stiff I can be sometimes. All my trainers have consistently said one thing to me. “Relax.” I find myself saying it to newbies at the gym from time to time when holding pads so I know I’m not alone and just like everyone else I’ve got a lot to learn.

This week I’m straight back into  the mix and it’s good to be able to train 4 or 5 times again at my current gym. They’ve started doing Saturday sessions which makes me happy. In terms of fighting overseas the opportunities there and I’m hoping I can get out there this weekend to have a bit of fun.

I also should be fighting in July in Wales all being well. That one like the one ahead is a work in progress. How do I feel about fighting again? Up for it. I’ve gone from a little uncertain to realizing how much I miss it. You can’t beat a good challenge. Even at the scary points. It’s nice to keep things varied with training  and I think it plays a big part in staying motivated and focused just like working towards a fight does.

But that’s just me. Not happy unless I have a goal to focus on. Something to say I’ve got better at. Something to say I’ve done. Something to say I’ve won at. Something to keep forever. Train hard, keep focused and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road. 😉





Drop the excuses.

Training this week although not quite as intensive at points as I’d like hasn’t been too bad and I’m pleased to say the week’s still been pretty full. I’ve started throwing in a 4 to 4 and a half mile run a couple of times a week that my times starting to improve with although at points I’ve questioned how committed I feel to getting out to Europe in a couple of weeks to fight again.

However, it really does look like it’s happening. Which is pretty awesome.  I’m intending to put in a big push next week and some of the week after. I’m currently sitting at around the 40% ready mark. If you want to put a percentage on this kind of thing that is. Along the way I’ve found there’s another show happening a little closer to home over the summer I’ve already asked to fight on that is yet another goal to work towards when I get back. In generally, I’ve gone from not really doing too much to suddenly find what I want staring me in the face..

And that’s the thing. Sometimes people get what they want only to realize it’s not really what they were looking for. I feel similar to how I did in some respects to before I had my first fight way back in the mists of 2010. That was a good fight and one some said I won. Kind of like my last fight.

When I say I feel similar I mean I feel a little nervous. Then again, I always feel nervous. If I didn’t, something would seriously be wrong.  I questioned earlier if I’ve been training enough for next month and the answer is I’d really like to be training more. I need to do more weights at home and I also need to do more sit ups. Everything else seems to be working itself out.

The problem with delaying and putting things off is that when you wait for tomorrow,. it often never comes. I think of late I’ve been suffering with an ongoing battle of procrastination and I feel that I am only just starting to break that little mould and step out my shell again and drop the excuses.

Little by little things are heading back on track, and even though I may give myself a hard time a mental kick up the arse never hurt anyone. I’m not afraid of much these days and the critics if they even exist, can go fuck themselves. They don’t know me. Only I do.  I’m pretty sure the only critic out there is me anyway. And you really wouldn’t him. He’s a negative prick.


So little by little, even sitting here writing this I’m learning once again to push past the self doubt and look at the goal or goals I’ve got in front of me. In the cold light of day I’m well aware of what I’m doing. I’ve done it before and when I actually get stuck in I really enjoy it. It’s a good challenge and I love the combat.

Do I still want it enough to win? ha if I didn’t there’d most certainly be something wrong. I’m pretty confident that fights this year are going to be better than before win or lose and I’m still pretty much convinced going in off the back off a loss gives you a bit more motivation. We shall see how things play out in 2017. Positive mental attitude and all that stuff.

I’m looking forward to a good bank holiday run tomorrow morning. I was going to go earlier on this evening but then I’d just been training and one excuse quickly led to another and before I knew it, it was dark. And it was raining. Mildly. So when it comes to excuses next week onwards I’ve decided to drop the last of them.

They don’t serve me any purpose and like Nino Brown once said “bullshit runs a marathon.” It’s a nice feeling knowing that when I put my mind to it I can do whatever I want. I hope that never changes. Have a great week, train hard and just like the last time… I’ll see you on that road.


Picking it up again.

This week, training unlike last week  has been a thing of awesomeness. Maybe that’s why I was quieter than usual, but I’m pleased that I’ve spent the best part of the week at the gym. It’s always good to push yourself and Monday although a gym free day is due a big run at lunch time. Of course, I intend to pick things up (again) and make sure that I’m just as busy with all things martial in the week as I have been of late.

One of the lads from my gym has just come back from spending a couple of months out in Thailand so this week we were training in a similar format as he’s been used to. Large amounts of knees on the bags and lots of clinching as well as sparring and the usual drills was a lot of fun.

There’s 2 and a half weeks or so of training to go until my planned trip overseas and there’s still a couple of loose ends to tie up but I think I can get myself ready as long as I really push. My current lack of a corner is bothering me a little (my trainer’s not able to make it )  as I really need someone who knows me to do that job but in the same respect I think there’s going to be people there who might be able to help. From what I’ve been told they’re a good bunch.

If  for whatever reason this becomes a spanner in the works then that’s life but I want to  give it a shot. Besides other than competing it looks set to be a fun weekend.

It’s going to be nice to step outside my comfort zone again and I’m intending to do the same over the next couple of weeks at the gym too.  Ultimately looking out for me is kind of a new one  and although I know the support structure is there I still feel like I’m stepping into uncharted territory even if it is briefly.

I think the fear of nothing happening if I didn’t decide to do something like this has pushed me into action. I wanted to get out to Europe last year but for whatever reason  made a load of excuses and never did and although I’m worried that history will if it can repeat itself (it seems to like doing that of late hey ) I’m feeling pretty determined about the whole thing.


My first goal if the fight comes together is to win. I’m not going out there to lose. My second goal is to come back, ironically win or lose with just as much fire as I used to have. I could feel it slipping away when nights down the pub and long weekends began to take over consistent training week in week out. And that’s the third goal. To train as much as I can like it or not.

My own tardiness infuriates me at points and although I’ve met a few in the Thai boxing scene round here who live for the weekend I’ve been there and I’ve done that. I’ll still be training when I’m 60. Anyone can sit in the fucking pub. I’ve picked it up again and I’m going to keep it where I want it to be.

Technique at the moment still needs to be sharpened up but isn’t too shabby and sparring is getting better. Next week I intend to switch off a little more, work on my range and get faster and nastier. I need to put my head into K1 mode because those are the rules out there. I won my last K1 fight so that’s making me feel pretty positive. And of course, then there’s the running.

Next week just like this week is going to be a week of training that’s well worth my time. I’ve come away feeling that I’ve done something good and from previous experience the next couple of weeks needs to be hell and back. Let’s hope all goes according to plan and I get to prove myself wrong. Again. I thought I’d leave you with a highlight video of my favourite fighter. It just popped up in my Youtube feed. You know who that is. 😉 Have a great week and just like that last time.. I’ll see you on that road.

Pornsanae leg kick destruction.

3 T shirts later.

Well, this week has been an outstanding week of training. I may well get a little more in this afternoon but feel inclined to have a brief rest at the same. I guess I’m being lazy but sometimes lazy’s ok. I’ve finished off the majority with a good run whilst dressed like an eskimo due to the layers I put on.  6k and 3 T shirts later and I’m a kg or so lighter than when I woke up this morning. Running does that.  I’ve managed 3 or 4 this week as well getting a healthy dose of martial action in my life.

It’s funny how things begin to change  when you set yourself goals. Yesterday I stepped in the ring for the first time in well over a year just to have fun and get some cobwebs off in an interclub. I got well matched with a lad in his early 20’s who’s had 14 MMA fights and is on the verge of going pro.

Firstly, he was better than me and secondly I did well and although it wasn’t brilliant I stood my ground and gave it to him when I could. I stepped out the ring feeling like I wanted to get back in there again. May is very much in my sights but I have a hell of a lot work to do or being honest I won’t last 2 minutes in there.

Fighting is a big commitment but it’s still worth my time, so here we go again. And if for whatever reason I don’t get a definite match for then I’m still heading out there regardless and I think will come away hungrier than I feel already. If I do fight win or lose I’ll be the same.

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I was quite pleased to get someone with the same sort of experience as me, he was also younger than me to so standing my ground and holding my own at points was good. I’ve got a lot to work on and I’d forgotten that there’s a big difference between putting it together in the ring and putting it together on a bag or pads.

My one criticism of my current gym is that we spend too much time warming up and really don’t seem to focus on shadow boxing at all. You can shadow box but it’s usually when you have the chance. To me, that’s really unusual as every gym I’ve trained at previously always has a couple of minutes to shadow box at the beginning. I think Sitsongpeenong was slightly different but we still got expected to do it.

When it comes to fighting now and then, I’ve had some tough fights so far. It doesn’t come easy but it’s eventually got better and I almost regret having a year out as it feels like I have to start from scratch. I do my best to remain humble about what I can and can’t do but refuse to let people put me down and discourage me out of anything I want to do. If person x can do it then why can’t I? super simple stuff. I manage my own expectations without needing people to do it for me.

For me, even if I lose and I do my best I know that I’ve done my best. What’s most important is that I know I am capable of winning and have achieved that before and I now know I can fight guys with similar experience and feel comfortable in there with them. Yesterday showed me that even though it was only an interclub  I’ve got a lot of work to do and although I may not feel that confident at the moment I’m looking forward to some real graft.

I have to manage and pep talk myself through the difficult bits because there’s no one there to do it for me. I don’t think many people seem to want to know sometimes but I know that when I’m at my best I’m a good fighter. Fuck age, I’m only young. Fuck limits they are only self imposed. I’ve been staring at a glass ceiling for the past 12 months or so  and I think it’s about time I tried to punch through again.

At the risk of sounding melodramatic  I’m still here and if I can be the best I can that’s the main thing. If you meet me you’ll realize if you talk to me about fighting I don’t see it all  as blood and guts as sometimes I make it sound. I’m still very passionate about it but ultimately  it’s good fun and I really love the combat.

I think the first thing I said after yesterday was “it was a good challenge!” and from previous experience competing for real it only ever brings out the best in me. So here I am and 3 T shirts later I still feel just as inspired and motivated as I did yesterday. In fact, I feel free. Have a good week  and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.


Business as usual.

Evening  all. Hope things are good with you. when it comes to everything training wise things aren’t too bad with me. I’ve been consistent the past couple of weeks and need to step things up a little but a few times a week is better than nowt. I’ve actually spent this weekend having a lot of fun and a good dance, cobwebs got shaken off with a decent run earlier.

Disco time aside I’ve been doing my best to get focused on May this year which should see me heading overseas to get the rust off, and back in the ring again. Goal setting has always been one of my favourite past times, and as always the more I train the better it seems to get.Breaking away from personal and sometimes not so personal criticism and detraction in it’s many forms has done me the world of good and having something to work towards has given me the inclination to start to step things up training wise.

I’ve managed a few sessions this week and last and should be throwing in a 4th next week as I approach the last week of the initial ramp up to May. I’m hoping my trainer is able to make it or someone from the gym but worst case scenario I’ll be heading out there anyway, and will no doubt get a corner sorted in the next month or so. Win or lose, I intend to come back refreshed, invigorated and back in the game.


Fighting in itself is a big commitment and I’m finding that taking the bull by the horns again is the best decision I’ve made in a while. I realized after training last week I’m really looking forward to competing and despite it feeling a little daunting I know as soon as I get my head into the training  it’ll be business as usual.

Besides, I’ve got 15 fights behind me so far and with that comes a reasonable of experience and a lot of self belief. It’s never really been something I’m going to suddenly stop doing it’s more something that I just decided to have some time out from. There’s guys and girls out there in my 30 something age bracket still competing, so that in itself is additional motivation.

5 weeks or so of training. getting the weight down staying away from alcohol is also going to be refreshing. There’s a lot to be said for getting yourself straight and my body always says thanks when I decided to abstain for a little while. That in itself can be a challenge but it’s always worth it.

I’m starting tomorrow with a decent run to get me kick started for the week ahead. That and some work on my other project before a pretty busy Monday should keep me on my toes. Speaking of my other writing project I intend to have the first draft of that together by the beginning of October. It’s stopping where my year out begins. Seeing as I couldn’t actually see at what point that was going to happen until a moment ago I’m quite pleased.

Being honest, I’m fully aware that we don’t always achieve what we set out to do, but ultimately it’s important to try and usually we get back up and try again. I’ve put writing regularly down for a while now so I think it’s about time I got consistent with that too. I’ve just about made Sunday.

When it comes to training I’ve still got good people around me to keep me motivated and I like the style of Thai I’m being taught. I’ve changed slightly and I’m sure they’ll be more improvements the more consistent I am and the more I train. It’s a long road as they say but a good one… no doubt I’ll see you on it soon.

Where attention goes.

Yeah, so training recently. Well it’s not been too bad actually. It’s been a little lighter on the ground some weeks than I’d like but despite general slackness I’ve still been consistent and I’ve made sure I’m there as much as possible. Some times it’s easy to feel like your going through the motions and sometimes I feel like I’m making real progress. Either way, it’s always important to have a goal to focus on. So just recently, I’ve decided to set a new one.

I’ve realized I’ve got loads of free time between now and October and this means I can get down the gym as much as I want to. In short, this has made me very happy. Realizing if I want to I can start training practically all week again has made me even happier. I’ve made room for a lot of graft and commitment so realistically whoop there it is, if I want to I can start fighting again.

This is something I’ve been wanting to get back to for months but haven’t really been able to justify the time and have made a shit load of excuses as to why I can’t commit to competitions any more. I’m kind of at a point where it’s not that important if I fight or if I don’t but it’s good fun.. I’m passionate about everything  I do and when it comes to competing  I’ve grown to love proving myself wrong.

So stepping boldly out of comfortable little box I think in May I’m heading overseas to either get some Thai or K1 in my life. I meant to head out to Europe last year but for whatever reason didn’t go, so have decided to give it a shot this time round.

If all goes according to plan  it should be a good weekend away and I need a holiday anyway. I think I’ll decide at that point if this is going to be my last year of fighting or not. I decided a while ago I wanted to get up to like 20 odd fights and seeing as I’m sitting at the 15 mark currently I could maybe of signed myself up for an interesting year.

On average, I’ve usually fought a few times a year so already that particular goal is spilling over into 2018. I think the best thing to do is not actually a put a cut off point in place. Besides I only listen to myself and have no interest in anyone telling me I can’t do something. I can and I will. No one tells me what to do. I’ve always been an Anarchist. 10348938_10152179360293731_7851256722725497444_o

So when it comes down to training this week onwards I’m going to push myself. I’ve got a couple of weeks until April to get my head in the game ready for about 5 weeks or so of graft and the really nice thing about what’s ahead is that I really feel that I’m doing it just for me.

There’s all the usual factors to take into consideration, there’s all the usual worries and no doubt they’ll be the usual nerves but I’ve set my sites on a goal and I’m going to achieve it. The next couple of weeks outside of the gym is going to be about sorting out logistics but you know what I’m quite excited about it. It’s for a good cause as well and I love having the freedom to be autonomous. Being the boss of me is a liberating thing. I hope I get a chance at fighting for my gym a little later in the year too.

So, as the minutes tick past and Monday rolls on by I think for now that’s all she wrote. I’ve got a fairly easy Monday morning ahead and I can sense a nice run coming on at lunch time. I managed to do 5k yesterday so I think today I’ll go for 6. Energy flows where attention goes and  you know what? It’s good to be back. Have a great week, train hard and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.