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About The Little fighter still has a big heart.

Determined, tenacious and enjoying the journey, 18 fights behind me so far, training for over 12 years and have just taken my first steps back into the ring after 3 years out. I am a former WRSA amateur lightweight area champion and K1 Champion. These days I fight B or C class Muay Thai whilst defeating my inner demons, coping with martial trials and tribulations and making sure I still love every minute of it.

Once bitten

Hi. I thought I should take the time to catch up with you. I hope your week’s been full of all things martial and even if it hasn’t, I hope it’s been a good one. After a couple of weeks of post-Christmas blues, I’ve finally decided to pull my finger out and get training again. Even though this week has only seen a few sessions they’ve been good ones so on that note here’s to the week ahead!

I’ve come away from the tail end of Christmas feeling motivated. That’s unusual for me as it’s January and January usually gets me down. In fact, it’s probably my least favourite month of the year other than it’s spottier more irritating little brother February.

I think motivation this month has come from a few different sources other than myself. When you see people get bitten by the Muay Thai bug for the first time and they’re all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and full of “I want to be a champion” that can be liberating. It makes you sit up and remember that you too were once like them.

When you fall in love with an art it becomes you. It becomes all you care about for a while and whenever you can you take it home with you. The boundless enthusiasm and energy to commit to martial arts aren’t for everyone but once bitten forever smitten as the saying goes.

That’s why when a friend of mine who is currently in Thailand training with the awesome Nong Toom decided to step up for the first time I couldn’t help but raise a smile. When she told me she wants to keep training and keep fighting and get better and better at Muay Thai I couldn’t help but grin from ear to ear.

Tara Nong Toom Gym you have a big heart. It’s even bigger than mine as she is a trans fighter from the UK and is getting the recognition she deserves. That’s liberating. She’s Just taking her first steps into our world. Welcome and enjoy the journey.

It’s great to see Tara is building links with some good people in Thailand and I’ve heard she’s found a good camp to train with in the UK. I won’t go into that here but as soon as I heard the name a third smile emerged. They’ll push her and put her through hell but world champions have come out their doors. I believe in my friend. I hope she has many fights.


When I see people regardless of where that at with any discipline they train in doing their utmost to be better than who they are I feel motivated to do the same. It’s very easy to become complacent and comfortable with where your at in your chosen art but ultimately you’re only ever going to hit a glass ceiling unless you push yourself.  Besides, if you think you can or you think you can’t your probably right.

I guess that’s why for me I need to train as much as I can and as regularly as I can. It never comes easy to me but I’m getting better. I want to fight again this year but that will happen when it happens. In the here and now I need to make sure I make progress with what I’m being taught. Besides, if you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always got.

I’ve learnt over the course of time, over the wins, over the many losses and over the draws that what I’m looking for at points what I’m chasing has always been inside of me anyway. It’s just taken a while to learn how to switch it on but now that I have, now that I’m remembering how to again I think the year ahead is going to be a good one. If I want to stay inspired I only ever have to look at myself.

I thought I’d leave you this week with some food for thought from the awesome Geoff Thompson on comfort zones because it’s totally true that you’ll never find any growth there.   Have a good week, train hard and just like the time… I’ll see you on that road.






Hi. Nice to see ya. I hope you had a good Christmas and new year. Mine was truly awesome. Which was nice. Now that we’re on the tail end of the holiday season and the dust is just about settled I thought it would be good to round up 2019 and look at the year ahead.

The one thing I don’t do when it comes to New Year is make many resolutions. I ask for good things to happen and accept that I need to make changes to get to where I want to be. New year, new you is a myth designed to sell gym memberships and diet plans. It shouldn’t take a specific day of the year to inspire you to work towards new goals. That should be an ongoing process.

Whilst away for Christmas (Sunny Spain with the fam) despite the snacks, wine and general Christmas cheer I made a point of keeping my fitness up with a lot of runs. In fact, as of today, I’ve not trained for nearly 2 weeks so this week to make up for it, I’ve run a couple of times too.

It helps shake the food and booze off and at the very least means I won’t gas out when back at the gym in the week.  I’ve always been big on my fitness and cardio when it comes to Muay Thai and I can’t see that changing in the year ahead.

Training wise I finished last year ahead putting my pedal to the metal just to see if I still could and slowed down a little before we wrapped up for Christmas. It was good to see I’ve still got the dedication and focus to commit to training that I was at one point fearing I was losing.

Although I’ve lost my last few fights (both in 2018 and 2019 respectively) it’s good to be able to put things into perspective this year and say yes this is still something I want to do and get good at doing.


There is more to Muay Thai than just competing but hey if you love fighting then it’s not really possible to lose and if you can commit to it then just keep doing it. Besides, I know that the balance often tips. Especially if I commit to training a lot and keep working on my flaws.

I’m hoping to head out to Thailand for the 3rd time in the latter part of 2020 but I’m also looking forward to heading out to Europe over the summer to catch a couple of shows out there too. All in all this year, I intend to be an internationalist and a jet setter. Between you and me I’d love to go the the mighty Kronk gym in Detroit at some point in my life. But there’s lots of things I’d like to do. Energy flows where attention goes as they say.

Speaking of energy and despite a 2 day new years hangover it’s nice to feel ready to get back into the thick of things next week onwards. I want to spend January working on my fitness remembering that my fitness let me down drastically in my last fight as did my overconfidence.

I’d talk about it more but I wasn’t impressed. I let me down so to make up for this I intend to stay humble, train hard and get myself ready. My trainers will say when.I want to make sure I fight a few times this year and win. I need to work hard at the gym because it’s never been an easy road to be on. Only a good one. Fortune favours the bold. 

Finally, I intend to continue to broaden my knowledge and skill as a martial artist. I’m enjoying learning bits and pieces from other systems but would like to find another art to compliment Thai boxing. I’ve always had a soft spot for Kali Arnis and would like to learn some of the older styles of Muay Thai.

I want to be able to pass my knowledge on to others so want to focus a lot on helping others in and out the gym. I guess I want to be more selfless. Sometimes I feel selfish.  Thai boxing and martial arts have really forged some solid friendships over the years so I want to make sure I remember that there’s no I in team. As cliched as that sounds. Without good coaches and a good corner, I wouldn’t have achieved half the stuff I have!

I guess you could call some of the above new year’s resolutions if you wanted to but in actuality, they’ve been on the agenda for a while now. Let’s make sure they happen in 2020. In the meantime, train hard, happy new year, and just like the time before…. I’ll see you on that road.




Long road

Afternoon all and happy Monday. It’s nice to finally find the time again to catch up. Sorry, I’m late. Like all good bus drivers, I get there in the end. Training as always this end has been going well although I have to admit I’ve started to slow down a little as we get closer to the end of the year. I’m putting that down to feeling Christmasy.

Despite that, I’m enjoying my time at the gym and I’m already excited about what 2020 may bring. As it stands with exciting things happening at my current camp and a new relationship beginning with old friends at another I think I’m going to be spoilt for choice!

This year, despite it’s up and downs has been a good one training-wise. I’ve dropped the ball and picked it up again, considered very briefly putting it down for good and carried on as normal. I’ve listened to what’s been said to me despite not wanting to hear it and do my best to improve. Slowly but surely I’m getting there but as always it’s a long road.

And at the end of the year, I’m happiest knowing that I’ve got the capacity to put a lot more time and effort into my training, in fact, I’ve started to take it seriously again. Last week, I even caught myself trying something new in sparring which was a nice surprise. It’s just the little things sometimes that help build a bigger picture and give me focus.

Despite having a rocky return when it comes to competing I’m still keen to keep fit, keep active and keep fighting and hope that next year more opportunities arrive. I’m happiest when I’ve got some positive goals to work towards and think I can currently achieve my personal 6 month time frame of making the improvements I need to fight again. It’s a tough martial art and a tough sport and I need to work hard to be at my level best.

My focus is improving in lessons and I’m enjoying the freedom of open mat sessions. I still need to work on my mindset a little more. As Sitsongpeenong would say “stand your ground” when under pressure. Don’t give an inch and never back down. Like everything else. that’s a work in progress.

I’m looking forward to my last week of training before Christmas and the new year and intend to make it a good one. It may be a long road but it’s one I still love, and just like the last time, I’ll see you on it soon.



Hi. It’s good to catch up as always and most importantly it’s nice to be back on my regular Sunday slot. Now I feel like a talk show host or radio presenter. How’s your week been? mine’s been good. Training a lot as always, finishing the week off marginally injured from a few knocks in sparring but doing well. I’ve been slack with running this week so intend to play road work catch up from Monday onwards.

Over the weekend I’ve been thinking about how I can start developing myself in training more than I’m trying to already. I think at the moment I’ve got a solid game plan and it’s nice to train with people at varying levels of experience. I keep pushing myself and I know that I need to start doing a little more than I am already to really improve.

A while back now it was said to me that I’m never really going to change immensely as a fighter but I know the one thing I can do is build my skills and get better at my style of fighting. That style although unique to me is pressure fighting. People call me a forward fighter. I guess I am and always will be.


I noticed sparring this week that I’m getting the level of aggression I need to fight like this back and at points, I do some good work.  I also noticed at points I’m hesitant and sometimes I need to bide my time and stand my ground rather than rush in unchecked. On Saturday I played around with holding my position with a tricky boxer who kept out of range all the time. Sometimes it’s fun letting them come to you to see what you can do.

Earlier on in the week, I sparred with a more experienced fighter that I kept a very aggressive pace with. I did with a few people in fact. Eventually, I got swept and caught a few times but hey. Sometimes you have to work. Even if you miss, even if you get caught you can’t let it phase you and you have to keep fighting.

I’m well aware I need to work on timing and look for my shots more. Sometimes I get frustrated and give my game away. This too will pass and I guess I’ll remember that fighting is about being in the moment.   I’m finding that the constant critic is getting less vocal the harder I train.

I’m still taking time at home now and again to try to improve my hip mobility but this week I’ve not done it as much as I should so next week I’ll do more.  Slowly but surely I’m getting my head back in the game again and these days when I walk into the gym I remind myself to leave my troubles at the door.

If I’m thinking about work and general life stuff I switch on from the moment I walk up the stairs. It’s not perfect but it’s improving.I’m getting my focus back. If I want to step up again it has to be 150% or not at all.

Next weekend is my birthday but to remain consistent and most importantly disciplined large one or no I’ll do my best to catch up with you again next Sunday. Same time same place?. Great. It’s a date then. I have Grammarly on standby. I thought I’d leave you this week with a little of one of my favourite fighters, yep you guessed it Pornsanae Sitmonchai turning up the heat when it counts the most. Train hard, fight easy and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.


Where progress lives

Hi. Sorry, I’m a little later than anticipated but as always it’s good to catch up. I hope Monday fairs you well and has been a productive start to the week. I never seem to get on that well with Mondays. I spend half the day not doing too much then about 4 hours taking work seriously. The internet like life is full of distractions.

Training at the moment is still heading in the right direction (being honest, I don’t actually think there’s a time when it isn’t ) and I’m slowly picking the running up again. Last weekend I headed down to a gym I trained at way back when and got some sparring in with some old training pals.

Everyone there like at my current place is at a good level so it was nice to see how I fared against old and new faces. I seem to be improving I’m pleased to say, so next year as is the  plan intend to get myself fighting again. With the support of my gym of course.


I’ve been Thai boxing for nearly 13 years now and although it’s taken its time things are starting to come together more naturally for me. I’ve also found that my flexibility is improving a little. I put some of that down to having to kick a little higher than I’d like with most people, and the majority down to actually listening to my trainers for once and practicing mobility stretching at home.

I think I still need to do a little more in sparring,  but my cardio is ok and I can keep the pressure on when it counts. This week I intend to start trying some sweeps in sparring and all that good stuff. I need to work on ways to close the tall and dangerous down and make it so they don’t want to kick me anymore.

I’m also going to start spending time working on my mindset a little more and keep that aggression switch on. I’m sharp at present so want to use that to my advantage. It’s a long road and as always all of the above is a work in progress. When a friend of mine told me many years ago it takes a long time to get good at martial arts he wasn’t joking. I still have a lot to learn.

I think it’s important at present to find people that I know are going to push me to be at my very best and a change of scenery from time to time can keep that particular landscape varied and challenging. It also means I can put in a good amount of work in every week. Next time I fight I’ve decided to train 6 times a week for it. Whenever that may be. In the meantime, I’m doing my best to match that training regularly because I think that’s where progress lives.

Training and fighting require a lot of self-discipline so it’s good to find myself heading back towards the right places. Next on the agenda is getting my hit and miss timekeeping sorted out. Procrastination is still my enemy and as the saying goes sometimes the hardest bit about training is getting there. On that note, I’m currently putting off the rest of Monday evening so for now, that’s all she wrote and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.

Catch up.

Hi, nice to finally find the time to catch up with you and I hope all is going well in your world when it comes to all things martial. Things as always are moving in the right direction here. Yesterday training, (in fact just like last weekend ) I was pleased to find that I’m getting sharper as well as faster.  There’s always room for improvement but my technique seems to be getting better so I guess the hard work is paying off.

At this stage, that’s really what I want and there are a couple of contributing factors, the first and for me, the most important being is that I’m training a lot again and when I train a lot the better I seem to get. Last weekend saw me do my first interclub in a while locally at the awesome Bristol Punch Up (You can find out a little more about them in the link) and I also had a go at reffing a few K1 bouts which was a new experience for me and something I really enjoyed.

It’s nice to see some new clubs emerging in Bristol and what’s even more inspiring is that the “left” gym ( anti-racist, feminist and non discriminatory at its core, but open to anyone who sees humans as humans ) concept seems to be spreading around the UK, taking inspiration from awesome camps such as Freedom Fighters, White Tiger Muay Thai and others in Europe.

There were a few gyms who came last week (Red Corner and Brighton Left Hook to name a couple  ) with fighters all at different levels of experience and the matchups were very good. Well done to all who took part!

I made the mistake of having a night out on the tiles the day before so my first bout wasn’t as lively as my second (I was reminded that hangovers and combat sports don’t mix. I’ll stick to the golden rule from here on in.)   but my second wasn’t too bad at all. I came away from the experience deciding that I need to do a few more inter clubs before I step back into the square ring again. It’s a confidence booster and gets you used to the pressure.


I want to be ready to fight again within the next 6 months and think if I keep moving forward in the direction I am at present it’s absolutely going to be an achievable goal. When it comes to training unless your goal setting your doing it wrong. Besides, the journey isn’t going to stop when I finally decide to stop competing. Muay Thai is a complete system and there’s a lot to explore.

In terms of exploration of the martial art, I train in I’m keen to get back into some decent clinch work so starting this week I’m going to train with some old pals of mine just clinch sparring. It’s nice to have all areas of what I do up to speed and I enjoyed a clinch seminar I went to at the end of the interclub last Sunday hosted by Pete Irving. It was good to work basics and there were a couple of new things I learned too.

I’ve put myself in a position where I can now train 6 days a week if I want to, and like a kid in a sweet shop, I’m starting to feel a little spoilt for choice. It was good to catch up with Sweatbox here last weekend, I like the new gym! it’s been a while since I paid them a visit! 🙂 equally, I’m enjoying training in the mornings as well as evenings at my current camp “Knock n roll” (It’ll always be Combat Warriors to me)  too.

At the moment my heart is telling me “just train” so I go out and put in as much as I can. Investing in myself has always been my favourite thing, and besides an early December break is planned so I need to make the most of the last few weeks of the year. (Although I’ll no doubt find the time overseas too.)

I’m hoping the rest of the week continues to head in the right direction and of course I need to make sure I keep my running up to speed. You don’t run then you don’t fight as they say… So, as Wednesday afternoon rapidly heads towards Thursday morning I’ve realized I’ve got a load I need to get done and being honest I could talk to you forever about this journey of mine. Let’s catch up again on Sunday. I promise not to be late. Have a good week, and just like the last time… I’ll see you on that road.







Sooner than you think

Hi. Finally, I’ve found the time to sit down and write this blog of mine. As always it’s good to catch up and I hope Monday sees you well. I hope of course when it comes to all things martial that training is going well.  I’m pleased to say that things are moving in the right direction this end. Consistency and volume are staying at a decent level but there are lots of other improvements I need to make in the short term. I hope when I do, they have long term benefits.

I was looking forward to fighting in December but as I mentioned a few blogs ago I was expected to have made some improvements between then and now and because my trainers aren’t happy with me fighting again until I do, it looks like the next one will be next year.  I’m confident I’ll be back in the ring soon and being honest, I can understand why my coaches have got reservations at present.

A while back, I would have taken the decision not to let me fight in December badly and although I know I can look after myself in there and I’m tough to boot but at the moment I need to start pushing myself to get better than what I am. It’s fair to say that at present I would not have an easy time.

I’ve had 19 fights so far and I know that it’s not going to get any easier. Experience is one thing but so is personal development. Besides what’s the point in learning something if you’re not going to make an effort to put what your being taught into practice? when one of my trainers sent me an angry text saying not only am I consistently late to his class but that I’m not making progress and I lack discipline I took it pretty personally.


Dave wrapping my hands at Elbow Fest Cardiff summer  2018. My first fight back after 3 years out the ring. Ironically, I fought better on this show than I have in my last 2 fights. 

Sometimes, I take a lot of things personally. But that’s just me. It wasn’t until a couple of days later that what was said to me sunk in. I realized that I do need to improve not just my technique and at least try to develop but I need to improve my attitude towards fighting again.

It’s a tough world in there and experience or not, there is absolutely no point in fighting if I’m going to get taken to pieces in there. I enjoy the combat but I want to be at my best and I haven’t had my head in the game for a good few months now.

Thankfully, that is starting to improve and I know this is the truth because I am training and running a lot again. That’s the first step in the right direction. The next step is to make sure I practice what I preach and get my time keeping right and learning head-on. If I’m going to box again it has to be all or nothing. I can’t walk into the gym carrying mental baggage. I’m only human but I hope you know what I mean. I need to make sure my focus is on the here and now. When I’m training, it should have my undivided attention.

My other trainer has said to me I really need to work on mobility and flexibility. if I’m serious about fighting I need to make sure the engine is running as it should and I guess a bit of fine-tuning never hurt anyone. If I reel off what I intend to do to help with these areas I’m going to make myself sound about 90 plus so I’ll let my pride hold out for now. All you need to know is that I’ve listened and it’s been taken seriously as well as onboard.

One of the most important things I have to do at present is set a time scale for myself as to when I think I’ll be ready. When I have a goal to work towards it’s a lot more positive than an indefinite ever-changing goal post. I know that there is still no landrover so I keep training. I think I’ll be up to speed in 6 months. I think that’s a good goal to set. The knowledge is there it’s just the areas above that need refining.

I want to come back stronger and better than I’ve ever been. It would be nice to finally finish this part of my journey with a few more wins under my belt so at the moment that’s my goal. Win my next three fights. It’s going to take a lot of work to get good enough to make that a reality but don’t tell me it can’t be done. Besides, at the moment I’m not that bad. I may not be great but I’m ok. I can, however, do a lot better. I will do better.  Here’s to another good week training. I’ll be back in the ring sooner than you think and just like the last time.. I’ll see you on that road.